You don't know shit

You know at nights I stay up, for hours. It doesn't matter how tired I am. My eyes always start to tearing up because they're too tired to be open. But my mind isn't, my mind is always busy. It's busy being afraid, and my heart helps it to feel that way. My mind runs and my heart beats. I also think about you at nights. I always think more about you at a time like this. And I wish for myself, I wish I could see you asleep. I wish you could calm my mind down, make it feel safe. Make my heart feel loved.